Today is Friday, August 26. The morning after the first zap of radiation. And the morning after the first chemo pill. And, since I'm getting a late start, by the time you read this I'll also have had my second zap and will take my second chemo pill tonight before bed. Such is my life now, I suppose. Measured by pills and doses and treatment schedules and stuff like that.
I'm a pretty steady sort, but I'd be lying if I said that it is not a bit unnerving trying to keep still on a hard flat table while a machine is hovering over your masked face doing some sort of buzzing stuff. Here's how I've kept calm so far — copy a Bible verse and take it with me, clutch this padded ring they give me, close my eyes, try to be completely and totally still, and pray, sing in my head, and repeat whatever scripture comes into my mind for 10 minutes. So far, that's working. :)
As I sit here eating a luscious whoppie-pie type sandwich cookie that was leftover from the wedding (you know that I made sure those came home with us to freeze for later!), I'm a bit horrified at how my waistline has expanded over the past several weeks. I guess it's a combination of an over-active sweet tooth and lack of self-control (both of which have always been with me), no exercise, and the effects of steroids and stress that have made me go a bit crazy with the food. Anyway, today I tried to put on a skirt that I wore to a shower two weeks before the wedding — and today I probably needed about two more inches to zip it up. Not good at all. But — hey! — maybe I'll be needing a fat store in the coming weeks... so while I say it's horrifying, I don't really mean that. It is what it is. And this afternoon we're going to try to do a bit of elastic-waist skirt shopping. Sound fun? :)
Now, I'd say it's time to get into something meatier for today (haha — can't seem to get away from the food references). How about some New Testament scripture?
2 Corinthians 1:9b-11
"...we stopped relying on ourselves and learned to rely only on God, who raises the dead. And he did rescue us from mortal danger, and he will rescue us again. We have placed our confidence in him, and he will continue to rescue us. And you are helping us by praying for us. Then many people will give thanks because God has graciously answered so many prayers for our safety."
I know that I write this all the time, but... wow. I think I've always known how important it is to rely on God, but — now — who else is there? I mean, I can do all the medical things that I should, but, really, who else can I rely on but my Lord? We know that He is the only One who can raise the dead. And He's the only One who can rescue me from this mortal danger.
I sometimes wonder about what that means... rescuing me. I'm not sure that means healing or long life or comfort or lack of pain. I know that, because I've put my faith in Him, in the end He will rescue me from a lifetime of being separated from Him. And for right now? Well, I guess my job is to keep putting one foot in front of the other, to keep growing closer to Him, to keep relying on Him and see where He takes me. Maybe not where he takes me — because I know where He's taking me. Maybe how He takes me there. And what we do along the way. So glad you're on this journey with me! You truly are helping us by praying for us. And we thank you for that — and we thank you for YOU! It's a little weird to say, but this whole experience has turned into quite the blessing. An incredible blessing. You're a big part of that... so... again... thanks!
Now I'd like to move on to a card. I'm finding that I need a lot of thank you cards. Well, if I were actually writing very many cards I would need a lot of thank you cards. At least I've found the time and energy to make a few. :)
This one was inspired by this week's Papertrey Ink Make it Monday Challenge (#29)... Freestyle Coloring.
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Basically, I stamped, scribbled, and finished. And, of course, I used my "glitter saves anything" theory. :)
AND TELL: stamps are from Papertrey Ink (Mehndi Medallion, Think Big Favorites #6); cardstock is PTI (Vintage Cream) and Stampin' Up (Basic Black); ink is PTI (True Black); glitter is Prisma (gold); also used Copics (PTI's Summer Sunrise trio) and 1/8" Scor-tape.
We have kind of a big weekend around here. First of all — it looks like the hurricane will not affect us at all, so that's good. Britt has been here a couple of days and Kenneth is coming tonight — so that's good, too. This little brain tumor has prevented the newlyweds from having as much time together as they should. Then I think Kenneth's parents are coming sometime this weekend for a visit — maybe Sunday — which will be great, too, since we haven't seen them since the wedding. Yep. Lots of good things going on over the next couple of days. :)
Probably time to get this posted. I'm so thankful that you stopped by for a visit. Hope you have a great weekend planned, too! Sending you lots of love!