Today is Tuesday, October 11. It's been sort of a mixed-bag kind of day. I started out feeling rather sad and sorry for myself. Then around breakfast time my attitude improved. I even went to work for the first time in weeks — and that was very good. It takes me forever to do anything, but I did get a few things accomplished and stayed a couple of hours. Here's the proof...
I came home and took nap, had some lunch, and then just retired to the couch and got lost in the internet for awhile. I decided to have a little snack before working on my blog post, and that's when my fortunes changed.
My balance and my gait have not been good today. My right foot is swollen and dragging again and, because of all of this, they have decided to up my steroids for awhile. Maybe they didn't do it soon enough, because a little while ago as I was making my way across the family room floor I stupidly tripped on the computer power cord and fell flat on my face. And then I couldn't get up. I finally did, but I had to army crawl to the little step from the family room into the breakfast room to get some leverage to stand. It was frustrating and humiliating and frightening all at the same time. And a little painful, too. I know that Ken & my mom will not be happy with me for not calling them for help — but sometimes you just have to at least try to do things for yourself. And, though I tend to tell all on the blog... by the time I do that I've had a bit of time to process. So — I'm hopeful that the increase in steroids will maybe help that little balance and foot-dragging issue. And that when they try to reduce the steroids again that there won't be any swelling that accompanies it. This whole thing is getting a little tiresome for me.
Here's some scripture for today —
"But blessed are those who trust in the Lord and have made the Lord their hope and confidence. They are like trees planted along a riverbank, with roots that reach deep into the water. Such trees are not bothered by the heat or worried by long months of drought. Their leaves stay green and they never stop producing fruit."
Lord, You are my hope. My confidence is in You. I trust You with my life! Sink my roots deep into You. Even though I may be experiencing a drought right now, keep me fresh and productive. Let my life continue to produce fruit.
So, what a mixed-bag of day I've had. Yet, even still, my confidence in the Lord is not shaken. I will confess, I do not like this situation and the Lord and I have had a few conversations about it over the past several days. I can go from despair to hope at the drop of a hat — and vice versa. What I'm learning is that when I was feeling good, this tumor was easy to bear. Now that I've been having some slight headache and mobility issues — well, I'm pretty much a wimp. But, isn't my God the same God? Doesn't He love me just the same? He longs for me to turn to Him in my trials. He IS my hope and my confidence. I may be in a drought, but I won't wither and die because I am deeply rooted in Him. I need to be deeply rooted in Him. Thanks for praying for me.
So let's move on to a card.
Our stash of cards to give to people who are bringing food to us was getting low, so it was time to beef the stack up a bit.
And I really like the sentiment. It's so appropriate. Thanks just doesn't seem like a enough considering all that people are doing for us. We are so, so appreciative!
AND TELL: stamps are from Papertrey Ink (Autumn Abundance); cardstock is inexpensive white); ink is Memento (Tuxedo Black); also used SU watercolor pencils and a blender pen.
I need to finish this up. My mom has a gift card for Olive Garden that we're planning on using tonight. I haven't been to Olive Garden for years, so it should be fun.
Thank you so much for stopping by and for your continued prayers for us. We so appreciate you and are sending you big hugs! Hope to see you here again tomorrow.