Today is Monday, October 17. I'm going to try to get back on schedule with the blog posting today. Funny how easy it is to get off track... and then to get kind of lazy about the whole thing. Hopefully I'm not so out of practice that it takes me until after dinner time to get this done!
The weekend was fairly uneventful health-wise. The last couple of days my legs have seemed to be getting weaker and weaker. Not sure what that means. I've been told that steroids can make your legs weak so maybe that's it. I have been on steroids for quite a long time now — I guess well over two months. Tomorrow my dose is being reduced again so perhaps that will help. Hard to say. In the past reducing the steroids has has made me very nervous because at times it is accompanied by confusion and the inability to think clearly. But that hasn't happened for a long time so I'll just pray and trust. :)
So, Saturday was a special day. We celebrated my birthday at King's Kitchen — maybe my new favorite place to eat. Britt was here and her in-laws drove in from the eastern part of the state. Our "adopted daughter" Brittany came to eat with us and Kenneth was able to work it out to surprise us all by arranging his work schedule a bit for a quick trip to Charlotte. I'm very touched that both Kenneth and his parents would spend a total of six or so hours on the road just to have a birthday meal with us!
I know that some of you like to check out the cuisine and this time it was just good ol' southern food... biscuits and cornbread...
with a few sides — mashed potatoes and gravy, cole slaw, macaroni and cheese for me. (In southern speak, that is called meat and three — from the menu choices you select a meat and three vegetables... down here, macaroni and cheese is a vegetable. :) ) Looks pretty good, doesn't it?
And here we all are...
my mom, Kenneth's dad Eddie, Kenneth's mom Jackie, Kenneth, Britt, me, Ken, and our adopted daughter Brittany. After dinner we briefly separated and the out-of-towners went on a little walking tour of uptown Charlotte, while Ken and I drove past a couple of my favorite Charlotte spots. I'm hopeful that one day I'll be able to get out of the car and enjoy a stroll through the city again.
Well, it's been awhile since we looked at some scripture together.
"Bend down, O Lord, and hear my prayer; answer me, for I need your help. Protect me, for I am devoted to you. Save me for I serve you and trust you. You are my God. Be merciful to me, O Lord, for I am calling on you constantly. Give me happiness, O Lord, for I give myself to you."
This was actually a passage from yesterday's scripture reading, but I decided that I needed it today because today has been a little tough. I'm tired. I'm crabby. My right side is kind of numb and my foot is pretty swollen. I'm not very good company at the moment; I don't even want to be with me.
So at times like these I just have to focus on scripture and make it my own. Today I'm begging the Lord to hear my prayers and answer me because I desperately need His help. Lord, I'm devoted to You — protect me! Save me because I trust You and I serve You! You are my God — be merciful to me! I call on You constantly, Lord; don't tire of hearing from me. Give me happiness, Lord, because I am devoted to You.
This is making me a little teary today. You know how sometimes you just need a good cry? I'm thinking that maybe this is one of those times for me. And I know that if I give in and cry that as soon as it's over I'll feel better. And, really, I have so much to be thankful for. I know that the Lord loves me and is with me. I know that, no matter what, He will always be with me. But, I also know what I want — and what I want is to be healed right now. What I want is to be able to live a normal life. What I want is to be happy. So, I'm begging the Lord to bend down and heal me so that I can continue to serve Him. I'm praying that the Lord sees fit to answer my prayer.
Maybe something crafty will lift my spirits a little. Here are a couple of cards that I made to add to the stash to give to those precious people who are bringing us food.
AND TELL: stamps are from Papertrey Ink (Iconic Images); cardstock is inexpensive white; ink is Stampin' Up (Old Olive, Kiwi Kiss, Certainly Celery, Pear Pizzazz, Calypso Coral, Pool Party, Basic Gray).
I have more that I could share, but I think I'll stop there today. After all, it will be after 5:00 when I get this posted and I'm kind of in the mood for some mindless TV watching.
Thanks so much for suffering through with me today. Let's hope that tomorrow will be a better day. I really appreciate your visit and, especially, all of your prayers.